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Published on: February 20, 2017
by Lauren Todorovic for Starts at 60:
Watching someone you love slowly withdraw from the pleasures of life, from relationships formed and hardly aware of her surroundings, let alone her granddaughter; this has impacted me more than I thought possible.
My grandma’s diagnosis with dementia has made me understand that I never really could have imagined what my patients and their families were going through. It has given me a greater understanding of those exact ‘losses’, the pain and grief that the people I’ve cared for have previously talked about. I can say it’s much worse than I imagined, now it’s happening to my ‘special’ someone.
I still recall the day the Geriatrician diagnosed my grandma with mixed Vascular Dementia and Alzheimer’s disease. The news wasn’t surprising. Never-the-less it was rather confronting and not easy to accept seeing the official words ‘dementia’ scribed in her medical notes.
The last six months has seen a steady decline in her cognition and the person I’ve always admired is slowly slipping away. The glaze over her eyes, symbolic of the wall between us, impacting on my ability to completely understand what she is going through. Some days are better than others with glimmers of hope and every so often flashes of her once previous self.
With each decline I prepare myself for what lies ahead. The emotions are hard to fight and I’ve started to acknowledge that in fact I’m grieving before she is gone. Even though she is still alive, I’m grieving the loss of her abilities and independence, the loss of her cognition and the relationship we had, loss of hope, the loss of her identity and the many more losses I can feel but can’t explain.
Allowing myself to acknowledge that I’m grieving helped me to understand the strong emotions and intense sadness every time I see her. I’ve taken to blogging as an outlet to express these emotions, which works for me.
Grieving before death has taken place is actually a real thing, which may be something many can relate to after reading this. It’s called anticipatory grief.
Understanding Anticipatory Grief
Most people attribute grief as something that happens after a death, however as I’ve talked about, it often begins before death occurs. It can start from the time we learn that death from an illness or disease will occur at some stage in the not so distant future. It’s natural that we begin to grieve. It’s different from the grief that follows a death although many of the symptoms of regular grief similar – such as sadness, isolation, forgetfulness and depression. Anticipatory grief is just as much about accepting the many losses of the person’s former self as it is about accepting their future death.
The subconscious or conscious thoughts of accepting that death is imminent can bring an overwhelming anxiety and dread. I’ve spoken about the losses I felt for my grandma.
Feeling these losses can in fact make people feel a sense of relief once the person actually dies.
Beware of your feelings and acknowledge if you are going through anticipatory grieving it will not only help you make sense of it, but it might even help relieve your anxieties.
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